Where do i begin Goddess? i feel full of all the old clichés and wish i could say them in a different way – but they have stood well to paint a picture which, no doubt, so many like myself have been urged to paint before.
my Goddess, Your warm and friendly welcome quickly set me at ease from the outward feeling of trepidation of which i was going through. Yes, i have been in that situation before but i have never been set at ease so quickly if at all. This i know so well it started early, it happened during our early discussion. And my level of ease was displayed when i spoke of a trance like feeling, of being in a different persona in my attempt to explain how i have felt when my soul has been touched. When i’m in the ‘zone’. That feeling does not always happen, i have to be at ease and be able to defuse my ‘male’ defence mechanisms. When that happens, when i get into that totally submissive state of mind, the feeling is so euphoric. That happened yesterday like no other time before. Since then, i have thought many times about how i deeply i relaxed so quickly, and about the total euphoria of Your words, Your touch and my reactions to You. The fact that i felt and continue to feel a NEED or is the word WANT to so completely submit to You.
i informed You that i had read almost every page on Your website and i was very moved by the devotion of Your slaves and the ‘collaring’. What i didn’t say to You was that when i first read them i thought, “Oh yeah, in this day and age who would go that far really!” Well i still feel like i’m in that hypnotic state. i haven’t stopped thinking about what i said about wanting to go further to total submission. i just keep wondering what has happened in my head for me to feel that i want to be so committed to You as i do in one session. i think now that i have some understanding of what’s in their heads. i, like them no doubt, hope and pray that You Goddess, will understand my NEED/WANT to submit and that, always providing that You need and/or want another devotee, You will accept me into training. i ask this from my grovelling position at Your feet. They talk about love a first sight (and it happens), i’ll use that to explain my NEED/WANT to submit as i do.
You have ‘touched’ me and i am ever so lucky and as importantly ever so happy. To be allowed to experience Your mood, the aura that surrounds You, the power of Your person and the reverence that You have, i have been truely (sic) privileged.