“Happiness can exist only in acceptance.”
The desire to dress up is one thing, stepping out once cross dressed is another and for many of you, this facet can be quite daunting and yet exciting at the same time. Do you identify with any of the following?
- Have you secretly been cross dressing and have reached a time where you wish to explore the real world as your feminine self?
- Do you lack the self confidence or are too embarrassed to venture out on your own once you have cross dressed?
- Do you wish to share this special experience with someone who understands you and accepts you for who you are without fear of repercussion?
- Or are you excited by the thought of being on show in public prior to returning to My dungeon where you will be dealt with accordingly and taken with My strap-on just like the sissy slut you really are?
Whatever your disposition, I encourage you to experience the world from your female perspective whether this is from a transgender point of view or a submissive one. I will assist with your preparation and transformation before stepping out together and you may opt for a brief experience or a more lasting one. your ‘en femme’ outing will be individually tailored to your requirement and level of confidence and you can be assured that your experience will be a memorable one.
Read Sonya’s reflection below of her ‘En Femme Outing’ experience.
SONYA STEPS OUT
Well what a day it had been, terrible storms and flooding throughout the area and work and traffic chaos were all to be negotiated as I finally made my way to meet with Mistress Adira for the first time. I was already well at ease having chatted at some length about what I was looking to achieve in her company and as I was already a relatively experienced cross dresser in private and had already taken ventures out in the car and to a service station. But these were all well controlled and late at night with little or any public interaction. Not normally being a thrill seeker like this, I had rationalised for months about how I could possibly go out in a general highly populated environment so that I could at last say I had “come out”. It was when I made contact with Mistress Adira that I suddenly realised this was the perfect opportunity to be taken out with someone sympathetic and accommodating of what it was to live mostly as my male self but have the inner female part of me known as Sonya who also wanted to exist and experience the real world out there.
So finally I arrive at the venue and lock up the car and walk in with my bag through the door. There I am greeted by a warm friendly smile from Mistress Adira who was sitting quietly and I just knew as I had felt when on the phone that here was a person truly willing to help and enjoy new and different experiences. I think you can always tell a lot about a person in the first few seconds when you first meet eyes and their smile, even before you both actually speak.
After making brief introductions and quickly providing some further background information it was down to business to show what clothes I had and thought I might be able to wear. I had purchased a new longer skirt and top earlier that afternoon as I was not sure what would be appropriate but had eyed them off and thought why not given it had been a while since I had bought anything for myself. Mistress Adira was very helpful discussing what I should and shouldn’t wear. Being a larger girl I was anxious not to draw attention trying to fit into something that just looked plain ridiculous whilst at the same time didn’t wish to appear dowdy and boring. But this is where my transgender experience takes a more alternate detail and Mistress Adira was more than accommodating and helpful when I explained that I like to generally wear darker black clothing and am interested in a more gothic but hopefully still elegant look.
Pretty quickly the clothes for the outing were selected and it was putting on the makeup that my male self started to disappear and Sonya came to the front. Mistress Adira kindly assisted in applying my eye makeup and gave me some very valuable tips. I had already been admiring her own application since arriving – years of practice obviously paid off! Finally Mistress Adira suggested I might like to try her lipstick which I was quietly hoping as I’m still yet to find a shade that I really feel is me. Once makeup was applied, it was then on with the hair and some quick brushing tips and looking in the mirror to see Sonya. Now I’m the first to admit Sonya is not Elle but I also think that she is very much starting to become quite comfortable with her larger body and dressing accordingly but still trying to be as feminine as possible and the darker overall look was just what I had hoped for.
It was then time to go out and I noticed Mistress Adira put on her beautiful coat. I realised I didn’t have one and then thought about a black knitted overlay top I had which I had never really worn. I tried it on and thought it worked quite well plus would help cover up a little. We walked outside and I waited in the street for Mistress Adira to come and collect me. I was amazed at just how relaxed and comfortable I was being there, if a group of people had walked past I would not have been concerned in the slightest and was quite comfortable and relaxed. Once in the car we organised for the short drive for our outing into Surfers Paradise which was operating fully with late night shopping and school holidays. At this point my first pint of nerves came over me as I didn’t really know Surfers that well and all of a sudden I was actually not quite sure just exactly where we had to walk to. I was in my highest of heels and it was wet and slippery…at this point I thought I’d kill for a cigarette but alas none to be had. But Mistress Adira was wonderful sensing my apprehension she just reassured that we will take it slowly and see how I feel and if not comfortable we just head back to the car. I was already venturing far outside my comfort zone. With that I took a deep breath and we were off, if I didn’t do it now I never would and Sonya really came to the front and we walked into the “Lions Den”. It was interesting scanning around for people who would have been “making me” but all of a sudden I realised they didn’t at all or didn’t really care. We walked right through the centre of the open mall area and down to the corner where we had to go. A couple of strategic changes of direction to stay away from groups of guys and we were fine.
It was funny as the venue we were meant to go to had a sign but we didn’t realise we had to go upstairs and half walked into the wrong shop. The young guy working obviously knew given it was so brightly lit but didn’t react at all – I’m only remembering this now as I am documenting the experience.
We then climbed the stairs to where we were heading. This was an interesting experience with both of us in high heels and everything quite slippery due to the rain.
Finally we arrived and walked in where no-one was at the counter. Our destination had been my idea as it was something I had thought about doing for a long time but then I decided it would be wonderful to combine with this overall outing experience. Mistress Adira had kindly found the venue and verified it was appropriate but they were not aware this client would be arriving en-femme TG. I was extremely relaxed and actually now becoming very confident in who I was and the young guy who came to the counter didn’t seem particularly phased which I had assumed would be the case given their line of work and the different and varied people they would see. I then told him I wanted to get my naval pierced and if it could be done immediately to which he said yes and we selected from the array of jewellery available. I quickly picked a silver bar which had a purple stone and asked Mistress Adira which she liked and was very pleased when she advised purple was her favourite colour. The decision was easily made there and then.
It was then a short time waiting for him to prepare his work area and then in to be done. Took around 15 mins and I am pleased to advise I didn’t feel anything at all. I was able to view in the mirror and then with that paid and left. The entire time there were other workers going back and forth and another client and no-one seemed overly fussed. I just completely relaxed and once having my piercing in place felt like Sonya had finally stepped from the shadows.
On leaving there was almost a minor disaster with me slipping on the last step but was able to regain my balance and with that out we went for the walk back to the car. This is where I look back and really see the difference with me taking small cautious steps and going from one side to the other of the mall on the way to the piercing venue, but now was just chatting away and went straight up the middle and to the car. I saw 2 young guys with their girl friends and they obviously “made me” and started to have a bit of a chuckle. I wasn’t phased at all and said to Mistress Adira, well I used to be just like that but with age now look at what happens – we laughed and made it back to the car.
A short drive back to her venue and that was it, collected my belongings and went home fully as Sonya and stayed that way until going to bed.
It was wonderful and I know this is hard to say but felt like a safe experience. I appreciate that Surfers can be an interesting place for anyone’s security at the best of times but with Mistress Adira I just felt safe and relaxed which was exactly what I was after. I had thought about the piercing for ages but being taken along with her was also incredibly reassuring and now I truly think Sonya has stepped out and its a nice little reminder she is there and a physical part of me even when I’m in boy mode.
So what’s next… well Mistress Adira suggested I do get the eyebrows done which I will and a tattoo on the back is now on the cards when I can afford.
All I can say is thank you so much to Mistress Adira, I know it was only a first meeting but its like an instant girl friend able to support and allow me to come out in such a wonderfully simple yet beautiful way. For anyone wishing to explore something along those lines where they don’t think they could ever do it by themselves, with their partners or friends, then Mistress Adira truly provides a unique and wonderful service.