i first met Mistress Adira in September 2009. i had telephoned Her a few years earlier whilst on one of my short interludes on the Gold Coast – to my regret it was my last day and it corresponded with Her day off.
i have now learnt to seize the moment and act when one’s feelings lead you to furthering your horizons in life, and explore all that is to offer in the world of Fetish and BDSM.
In a book i read recently written by Midori, undoubtedly a person of great intellect and perceptions of all whom She meets, Midori confirmed my own experiences “that at some point the person has been exposed to an idea and their mind has attached itself to associated thoughts and feelings and has then closed down around them cementing those ideas and thoughts.”
my first thoughts of enlightenment dates back many years when working in London when my boss asked me to deliver a parcel one lunch hour. Naive and unworldly I set off – it was only a few kms. On arrival i knocked at the door of this unpretentious West London building with the usual 3 or 4 buttons, one for each floor of the building. i heard for the first time the erotic sound of thigh high boots and stiletto heels on a wooden floor and was greeted by two provocative Mistresses in tight black PVC and rubber accessories. At that time i did not know what a Mistress was!
The two Mistresses obviously summed up my astonished look and invited me in whilst handing over the package. i was lost for words as i took in every inch of their bodies and their fetish clothing. They then showed me around their superbly equipped dungeon, cross dressing room and other facilities i did not even grasp. They asked me if i would like to stay awhile and they would give me a treat!
However not understanding what treats were available i said i really had to be back at work and they said do drop in again one day, an opportunity i regret not taken. What a mistake i made that day. As Midori states: “In reality all any of us have is this moment” – “this moment is both eternal and infinite”.
The seed of thought was implanted however due to my career path and later family life it was 2 decades before i came to appreciate the lust and desires waiting within to be developed.
i recall the thoughts flowing when i first telephoned a Pro Domme for a session. The feeling of control as my genitals were tied firmly with light cord then my nipples being clipped and some introductory spanking – the time went so quickly.
As i lived in the country, i could not access the fetish world. i bought some magazines when in Sydney and set about improving my knowledge. This is where Mistress Adira has shown Her intuitive skills – she has wonderful communication skills and draws out your real feelings and entices you into many fantasy scenes. When you leave Her presence, you are aware of the paths of enlightenment and long to return to follow the paths of mystery. Over the intervening years i have had numerous experiences, some unforgettable, others that perhaps have not filled my expectations.
i have always appreciated the visual aspects of the Fetish world however have enjoyed being blindfolded for different segments of play. The physical interaction in erotic play is real but the mental interaction is the most important part the BDSM play.
Some years later again whilst on a short break on the Gold Coast i found myself at a private birthday party. At first i felt a little hesitant as i was really an unexpected guest. Most present were fairly vanilla but not prudes. i was dressed somewhat formally in Jacket and Tie when the host asked two of the ladies present to take him inside and dress him more casually.
This created a conflict of thought and desire and action. The two ladies asked if i would change into a corset top and suspender and stiletto’s (the latter were too small). The surge of desire became unstoppable – soon i was being cross dressed and some make-up applied then i was collared and walked down the corridor to parade amongst the guests. Their ready acceptance and pleasure they showed from my perceived straight persona to a party participant i could not forget. It seemed i had a hidden exhibitionist streak. This then led to some fetish play all of which was cementing further my feelings of acceptance in the scene.
As time has gone on i have some very dear friendships in my path of learning – each on a different level. The reasons for developing preferences are not always clear.
Fast forward – about two years ago in Sydney i was walking near Central Railway and saw a shop called ‘High Heels’ with an array of stiletto boots and sandals in the window. i could no longer walk past, i enquired of the very friendly assistant if they stocked any large sizes. “Always” was the reply. i then took a seat and tried them on – thigh length and 5” heel. They seemed to encase my legs like never before and i knew i had to have them.
Having worn them 3 or 4 times with some quality fishnet tights. They go perfectly with my rubber shorts and vest and some full length black rubber gloves and i am ready to enjoy all the fetish activities i can.
Since getting these boots i can appreciate why ladies develop shoe fetishes. i again visited this shop recently and bought some stiletto open sandals for warmer weather.
About this time i visited a renowned Pro Domme in Sydney. The Mistress also highly intelligent and communicative, embarked on training me – She thought i needed a black rubber girdle with inflatable breasts and suspender attachments. She kindly ordered it for me to take on a recent holiday. i was surprised at how much interest it attracted at a recent event on the Gold Coast.
Fetish and S/M are not always about extremes they are about creating lust and desire. It is unfortunate so many people in the world have their desires suppressed just as mine were for 2 decades.
As i said i first met Mistress Adira in September 2009. She has this ability to make you feel comfortable on first meeting – Her greeting and Fetish attire immediately took control of your mind. i explained i would like to further my learning and was willing to accept new challenges. i immediately wanted to relax in my fetish attire. She spent a considerable amount of time dressing me and giving me a full make-up and a wig, then She added some silicone breasts to a bra before escorting me to Her dungeon. Here She tied me to the wall ropes, teased me continuously then applied the TENS electrodes to my genitals. This was quite erotic however it seems to slow down your ultimate objective of ejaculation. The session went for one and half hours and was one of incredible fulfilment.
As i had another 2 days in Paradise, i arranged to return on the Monday for further challenges. Mistress Adira told me of a few and planted the seeds of thought. i had no fear of Her wide range of erotic play as i respected Her skills and professional approach, Her ability to turn desire into action.
On the Monday W/we talked at length after again being cross dressed in Mistress Adira’s wardrobe selection and jewellery. i felt i wanted to walk down the street or go to a dinner party with Mistress Adira. i asked if some private parties were held and She thought i would enjoy a visit to Retribution, a Gold Coast fetish event. i agreed and said i would on my next visit to paradise and i would ring and confirm which month.
i was already disarming more and more of my inhibitions. Mistress Adira thought i should try a Urethral Sounds Examination. At first i was apprehensive but soon found Mistress Adira’s skill an exhilarating experience and when She progressed to the wider instrument, i was experiencing a new level of physical intimacy.
On my return home on numerous mornings i would wake up and fantasize that Mistress Adira was going to give a further examination with yet another instrument in Her surgical collection. In the months ahead i telephoned and wrote to Mistress Adira, seeking distance education. W/we made plans for my next visit to paradise and the visit to Retribution.
Finally February 2010:
i decided to stay close to Mistress Adira’s premises as the sheer intensity of the sessions leave you weak at the knees. Again i was greeted in a welcoming manner and Mistress Adira. Statuesque in Her fetish attire, Her breasts always youthful and Her body trim as She regularly works out.
i fantasize about being a waiter at a dinner party for 6 or 8 uninhibited guests – me dressed in fetish – then having my body decorated with fruit salad and ice cream.
The conversation centered on what i was going to wear to Retribution the following night. Mistress Adira had arranged for one of Her collared devotees to collect U/us and drive to the event. W/we then involved O/ourselves in erotic play and i was tempted into dildo training. Again Mistress Adira showed Her skills and experience in starting with smaller dildo’s and working up gradually. i would like to experience that scenario with a small group of players.
Saturday came and i counted down the hours full of anticipation and my mind was occupied all day wondering what relationships may develop. my pseudonym was to be ‘holly’. i arrived early for Mistress Adira to give me a full beauty treatment: make-up, a fetching red wig, black rubber girdle, thigh length boots and some special decorative stockings and some lace wristlets.
O/our driver arrived and also had to change. On arrival at retribution carrying O/our drinks W/we were welcomed by O/our Hostess and other guests. The bar staff were polite and efficient and put O/our drinks away.
As the other fetish guests arrived i was introduced and found them all very respectful. my black girdle with its inflated breasts created a lot of interest. i was struck by how many females wanted to touch them and squeeze the nipples.
During the evening there were some impressive floor shows: the Dagger Dancer – petite yet provocative; a Female encased in rubber, gagged and then suspended and teased with electro stimulation; Mistress Adira’s rope bondage and whipping display. i enjoyed the conversation with so many people and i felt i was fulfilling my dreams amongst the guests.
Naturally i would not be being truthful if i did not say more seeds have been planted in my mind. i cannot wait to return and be part of the floor show under Mistress Adira’s tuition who has my total trust.